Thanks 4 sharing...

ME : ( after argue with my bf ) *crying*.. felt like sharing my prob with someone.. so i missed call him.. then, my phone rang.....

HIM : *asking* what was wrong with you and ur bf??

ME : i dont know what's wrong, just maybe too long never meet him. i just wanted to meet him but his plan was full, each day going out perhaps not with me.. *sigh* i know sounds weird because of small matter, but think, ownself bf never ask me out or meet me, i dont know what position i am in his heart and sad cox he still dare say i never ask him out but actually i did, he still say me back that i going out with my besties.. i was trying to ask him out to meet each other, so.......... what's the prob??

HIM : Ahyo......... then both not "kap" dy break larh.. why want choose a hard way?..

ME : *silent* but i love him, i really dont know what to do only can satisfy what he wants.. its okay larh, thanks for sharing anyway, i'm going to sleep now.. bye..!

HIM : *after few minutes, he send a msg* maybe you felt that what i'm saying here is a crap, but believe me, it isn't.. i've been in this society not long, just 1 year more than you.. but i've meet lotsa people and they lotsa matured telling me the way of life.. you can see, i'm still single right? and i don't have a family.. but i'm still the hahaha kui meng.. right? LOL... remember, what ever happen you still have your family.. i'm here, maybe my shoulder ain't that big or hard as those dude out ther, but its always available for you geh.. but dont think that i'm a good bf or what, i'm a asshole too.. LOL, but i do care bout you or else i wont be sending 10++ long msg for you in the middle of the night.. say real, think of what i said seriously, then only you can understand what i'm tying to tell you..

HIM : *second msg* Smm ar, i tell you hor, actually being in a relationship at your age ain't a good thing, you know why? cox you and your bf is not matured enough to be in a serious relationship.. the fact is there's no such thing as everlasting love.. it might sounds simple, but i believe no couple in the world can do it even those married jor for many years.. you can choose to be in a relationship cox wanted someone that could listen to you when you are sad, pamper you when you felt like it, lend you a shoulder when you wanted to cried and someone to believe in you, right? actually is wrong, it doesn't matter that whether you are in a relationship to have that kind of feeling, you still have your family remember? they are the only one that would never turn back at you no matter what.. unlike me, you have a great family do you know that? so it does'nt really matter to have a bf or what.. and if you really do choose to be with someone, you have to accept the person he is.. cox you need to remeber that your the one who choose him at the very first place.. don't tell me that your ex is better or what, evyone have good points and weakness, i believe that you choose this guy cox of some reason. right? if really wanted this relationship to last.. try talking to him... either change for him or accept the way it is.. if still does'nt work and it hurts that bad, just break up.. that's it, that's life.. don't think that breaking up is the worst choice to make, it can be the best choice.. you are just 17, so many year's to go you scared can't find someone better??..

after i had read this msg, i guess you had just realize me one thing, everlasting love just a simple words coming out from a simple mouth.. it ain't true, maybe i was too naive to trust all these thing.. but now i will not.. anyhow, sometimes i just have to smile, pretend everything okay, hold back the tears and just walk away and i'm going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everything perfect. act like it's all a dream, and pretend it's not hurting me.. it isn't sounds funny how the people who said i'll never hurt you one are the ones who hurt you the worst...!!! yet, i'm still LOVE him that much............. *SIGH* =(

My plan is to forgive and forget...

forgive myself for being stupid...

and forget you ever existed...!!!

LOVE??

It had been raining for more than a week, Arrgh... so much rain made me everyday seemed so restless and gloomy.. today he (dear) msg me and said he was coming up.. It was the third time he said came up to see me but at last he put my aeroplane again and again.. SIGH... he carried his excused of why he didnt came all the way here and went to meet his buddies at MCD, tuition and etc.. *disappointed x2* We were living in the same housing area but i doesnt really understand why is it so hard for us to meet each other.. We would always eat lunch together after school, watch movies, and sometimes go out together.. We were more like a family, but I didn't know why I would NOT end up falling in love with him anymore more than i did last last year.. =( my eyes were wide and fill with tears.. i afraid he would not love me anymore.. seriously, i feared he would say something like that.. he will never share every single thing with me but with his friends.. *tmr, 15nov* at night after my dinner, i wanted to have a intimate talk with him after i reached home but he going out with his friends for yamcha, its okay.. while waiting for him to come back then i sms with my friend to asked whether she had any plan where to go because i was too boring at home, at first wanted to go but he angry at me cox i never tell him who i go with.. because of that he angry and showed me temper! he said "fuck the world la, cant just make me peace 1day, my dad and you *me* always like that".. then i just replied "okay then, i wont bother you anymore" then i off my phone.. i turns off the light and sleep, i cried and thought about a lot of things.. then, he called my house, my mum ans but say i was sleeping.. i doesnt want to push him anymore, there is no point in finding fault with each other, sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship or etc.. we both miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other "trusted".. just treasure what i have now.. i don't want to regret liked last time i did before, multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness.. if everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, i guess there would be much fewer problems in the world.. take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think... LOVE?? i have no clue bout that.. I am going to write on all the bricks, rocks or wall "I MISS U" and i wish that one falls on ur head if can, hahas, so that u know how it hurts when u miss someone special like ME..

Treasure what you have... okay? time is always too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear. too long for those who grief, too short for those who rejoice but for those who love... "Time is Eternity"
For all you out there with someone special in your heart, cherish that person, cherish every moment that you spend together that special someone, for in life, anything can happen anytime.. you may painfully regret, only to realise that it is too late...

Life ends when you stop dreaming, hope ends when you stop believing and love ends when you stop caring.. so.......... dream hope and love... makes life beautiful =)

When the night comes, look at the sky.. If you see a star, don't wonder why, just make a wish.. Trust me, it will come true, 'cause I did it and I found you (dear)..!

death??

Eyes-31mins,

Brain-10 mins,

legs-4 hrs,

Skin-5 days,

Heart-10 mins,

Bones-30 days,

BUT... LOVE-FOREVER !!!

I have the "I",

I have the "L",

I have the "O",

I have the "V",

I have the "E",

... so pls can I have "U"?

If I get scared, would you hold me tight? If I make a mistake, would you make it rite? If I build a fire, would you watch over e flame? If I say i miss you, would you feel the same??

Love will fly if held too lightly..

Love will die if held too tightly..

How should I hold u..??

How do I know if I'm still keeping you or I'm letting go...

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belle and i..

13Oct 2008

i just know her name is xiao bee... haha, so chubby..

u.u MISSING YOU BADLY

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Hey my baby, haha.. i’m just sitting here in my room thinking about you and how you are going to go out of country and i won't be able to see you until October 6.. Arrrggh...... i am really going to miss you like hell.. i love you more than anything cox you are my world, my life, my reason to live... there are many things that i regret... the greatest is that we didnt meet sooner.. but still nvm, thank GOD we did meet now... no matter what happens in the future, i just know that i really do love you and, babe, i wish you were here with me evy moment... i miss babe evy seconds, evy minutes and evyday, i really do... even though I see you evyday, yet still i miss babe very very much... =) Mwarkss...

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Smoooooooooooochess

Nice?? i hope baby like it..

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actually got no idea what to give babe,

at last i have the chance to went out so i bought something special, thats our first COUPLE CHAIN..!!

haha, is puzzle-look.. actually we have couple tee before, but aiiks,

what a waste, babe threw it away..

its okay, nvm..

today i went to mid with sis and mummy, i search for so long just to buy a simple gift for baby.. and tues that time i not purposely want to argue or have some fight with babe,

just i wana give you surprise..

i went to pui yi's house on thurs afternoon just to baked cookies for you,

but i really didnt mean that i dont wana replied, my hand was dirty and i never realize got msg.. so, sorree la okay? this couple chain got our name,

asked that seller curve it 1...

i bought 1boxer too, looks funny, but babe dont like it cox is not suit..

sorry again,

your birthday i nvr give anything to you, but now i already bought lar, so just SMILE and hope baby like it alright? Mwarks..

LOVE AND KISSES

Isn't she's cute??! CHUBBY huh.. =)

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Well, i've met her, oh gosh, such a pretty and cute girl i've ever met before.. when my 2nd sista bring her come over to my plaved, I just cant stop wanted to play with her.. So, sista and i brought her to playground and i give her a piggy back ride, SHE'S HEAVY lehs...!!!! My godness... when v bout to reached home, she just sit there quietly without asking anything, so i gave her some biscuit to eat, after few mins later, she said she was straving again, hahaha.. when my sis heard it, she asked her "why you eat so much, not scared have a big tummy arh?!? then she smile there.. What i mean is it's really funny you know, as a small kid like her could eat so many things in 1day.. she likes to play with my dog a lots cos my house was nothing *empty* no toy at all.. she's not purposely come here actually, was waiting for my sis's bf to come and fetch her back only so she's here for moment.. Before she went back, i've took her pic as a memory of mine, so there are some pic that i have taken........ Ohh ya, i forgot her name, when i asked her she's like.......... My name is XxxXxxXxx, i cant really heard it.. but nvm, somehow sure got chance to meet each other..

LOve and Kisses

CHECK THIS OUT...!!!

1. Kiss on the hand

*I adore you*

2. Kiss on the cheek

*I just want to be friends*

3. Kiss on the neck

*I want you*

4. Kiss on the lips

*I love you*

5. Kiss on the ears

*I am just playing*

6. Kiss anywhere else

*lets not get carried away*

7. Look in your eyes

*kiss me*

8. Playing with your hair

*I can't live without you*

9. Hand on your waist

*I love you to much to let you go*

A peach is a peach, A plum is a plum, A kiss isn't a kiss WITHOUT some tongue... So open up your mouth, close your eyes, and give your tongue some exercise..!!!

LOVE AND KISSES...!!!

I'm Soorrreeee

Lotsa things happened to me in the month of Sept..

need ages to solve it what was happening...

anyhow, still got lotsa thing which is bothering me very very much, my present relationship, parents and school life...

OH GOSH...

cant just let me relax?! i've been suffering and i know its a bit unfair for you but i cant control with others that comes into my mind..

right?

i've been trying to ignored those who are msg-ing with me and i didnt even replied them.. cant you just understand how i felt?

aiiks, i have no idea what the hell all this came to my mind.. so i just need to say

sorrrreee to you -sincere one-..

maybe you are right, i'm selfish sometimes.. nvr think about how you felt.. so now i controlling myself to behave and become a good gf of you.. ok?

today i felt kinda upset too that nvr replied you for the whole day, actually not low credit larh, just a reason..... cox i dont felt like msg-ing,

maybe my mood was not that good.. if we continue msg, i also will find things to argue.. sometimes

i wonder how much i LOVE you or how much i MISS you perhaps?

hmM, i know very well that you treats me in a very good and always be there whenever i need you, sorrree babe.. i was lying, cox i'm too angry that time,

so what thing comes out from my mind i just say out..

i know babe is a very good guy i would say.. SO?? please forgive me alright? babe,

you gave me the sweetest memories

i ever had and first time celebrating my bday with my love ones..

made my celebration turned

to a wonderful and special one..

i'm so glad to be your girlfriend now.. from now on, we dont quarrel much ok?

appreciate the time when we meet..

i would say each time i went to shopping, i will think of buying something for you..

i dont know why.. Eventhough last time we have broken up, but now we still can maintain a good relationship... =)

ohh ya, today whole day i cant online cox sista was playing games, chit chat, this and that, so i decided night is my turn to play..

unfortunately,

while i was playing, her boyfriend is disturbing me, asked me to let her online if i want some souvenir from him.. is CANDY... hahaha my favourite sweets..! since he miss my sista so so much..

what to do, just let her play lorh.. when she reached home, she bought some cake and mcd for me cox knew that i would let her play

if there is some delicious food for me.. without any advantages, i would not let her play 1.. haha..

opps~!!

it's late, i'm going to sleep now.. haha, here i comes babe, meet you in my sweet sweet dreams..

NIGHT.......... MWARKS..

A very Happy Birthday to BABE..

Baby, wanted to sing a songs for you.. but i was just too shy to sing infront of you.. haha, Nvm, its the same also.. here i go...

*Happy birthday to you
*Happy birthday to you
*Happy birthday to you my dear~
*Happy birthday to you...

NICE? not nice also say nice, =) seldom sing to plp de le... truly from my heart..! Mwarks..! although we cant celebrate together today, cox of tuition, sis spend all, this and that.. but after this trial we will see how alright? today is a very boring day for me.. other than games, sleep, eat and watch tv.. i really got nothing to do.. cant meet my babe although is his BIRTHDAY... SIGH.......... why am i so failure?! aiiks, earlier that time i was planning everything to give you a surprise.. but last minutes, babe tell me that he cant make it.. i'm sorry to you babe, nvr ask your opinion before i plan this, and nvr think that babe will go tuition today.. this months lotsa plp birthday, 1 of them is my 2nd sista, so today went to jusco with my first sista just to buy a small cake to her and have a simple birthday party without anything (what am i crapping?) ahyo, i mean not counted as party larh, but everyone is here included her boyfriend but not my boyfriend ofcourse.. after this and that, at last we can eat the cake.. 1words for me, yummy..! the cake is okay for me, not too sweet and not too bitter.. opps, 1 thing i cant forget is i haven choose a present for babe.. thats really really really BAD..!! but soon i will think what to buy ok? cox what i wanted to give dear is already gave-wallet, a pillow with a shape 'love' that i sew, tee-shirt (HUG) but for sure not to buy you a sandals or slipper.. =) everything that i wish to buy, you already have... OH GOSH, tell me what to do?! no idea, just hope babe enjoyed the day with your friends ok? i'm sure that after yamcha sure play dota till very very late, so lastly... hMm, just wanted to wish dear a very very happy birthday ok, and Hoe.. same to you too.. haha, no present for you.. lol.. sorry

-PaviLioN-

Headed to pavillion with besties today -lily and aillie-.. bought nothing other than shopping.. Took lunch at Sg.wang *wong kok char chan teng*, obviously v dont know where is the place, v find it out.. After lunch, had a walked then to Pavilion and went wong kok for yamcha and chit-chatting session again, had tea and snacks, why do v choose the same restaurant =??.. i'm so surprise that i've met Hoe, Boon Kiat and Sheng there.. Nothin much to talked, everyone was acting shy at each other *am i right*?.. Just joking anyway, don't killed me when u read this!!! Well, after that go for a movie called MIRROR.. OH GOSH, super duper scary..!! not about murdered but is about a spirit that living in the mirror.. the guy who sat beside me like nothing, no feelings and no screaming.. COME ON..!! is a scary movie larh.. what did you thinking? funny arh?! Finished movie session go for camwhoring session pulak, that's what girl ususally do laa.. =) just too free so v camwhoring and some more inside the toilet.. Where's the best place for us to camwhore?? Obviously TOILET are the Great choice.... Zzz.. Even the ah po sekalian all was looking at us, so embarassing right?.. ANd yea, got pail and mop behind us *spoil the pics* FINGER CROSSED!!

3-of us again..

got a bit blurr~