Thanks 4 sharing...

ME : ( after argue with my bf ) *crying*.. felt like sharing my prob with someone.. so i missed call him.. then, my phone rang.....

HIM : *asking* what was wrong with you and ur bf??

ME : i dont know what's wrong, just maybe too long never meet him. i just wanted to meet him but his plan was full, each day going out perhaps not with me.. *sigh* i know sounds weird because of small matter, but think, ownself bf never ask me out or meet me, i dont know what position i am in his heart and sad cox he still dare say i never ask him out but actually i did, he still say me back that i going out with my besties.. i was trying to ask him out to meet each other, so.......... what's the prob??

HIM : Ahyo......... then both not "kap" dy break larh.. why want choose a hard way?..

ME : *silent* but i love him, i really dont know what to do only can satisfy what he wants.. its okay larh, thanks for sharing anyway, i'm going to sleep now.. bye..!

HIM : *after few minutes, he send a msg* maybe you felt that what i'm saying here is a crap, but believe me, it isn't.. i've been in this society not long, just 1 year more than you.. but i've meet lotsa people and they lotsa matured telling me the way of life.. you can see, i'm still single right? and i don't have a family.. but i'm still the hahaha kui meng.. right? LOL... remember, what ever happen you still have your family.. i'm here, maybe my shoulder ain't that big or hard as those dude out ther, but its always available for you geh.. but dont think that i'm a good bf or what, i'm a asshole too.. LOL, but i do care bout you or else i wont be sending 10++ long msg for you in the middle of the night.. say real, think of what i said seriously, then only you can understand what i'm tying to tell you..

HIM : *second msg* Smm ar, i tell you hor, actually being in a relationship at your age ain't a good thing, you know why? cox you and your bf is not matured enough to be in a serious relationship.. the fact is there's no such thing as everlasting love.. it might sounds simple, but i believe no couple in the world can do it even those married jor for many years.. you can choose to be in a relationship cox wanted someone that could listen to you when you are sad, pamper you when you felt like it, lend you a shoulder when you wanted to cried and someone to believe in you, right? actually is wrong, it doesn't matter that whether you are in a relationship to have that kind of feeling, you still have your family remember? they are the only one that would never turn back at you no matter what.. unlike me, you have a great family do you know that? so it does'nt really matter to have a bf or what.. and if you really do choose to be with someone, you have to accept the person he is.. cox you need to remeber that your the one who choose him at the very first place.. don't tell me that your ex is better or what, evyone have good points and weakness, i believe that you choose this guy cox of some reason. right? if really wanted this relationship to last.. try talking to him... either change for him or accept the way it is.. if still does'nt work and it hurts that bad, just break up.. that's it, that's life.. don't think that breaking up is the worst choice to make, it can be the best choice.. you are just 17, so many year's to go you scared can't find someone better??..

after i had read this msg, i guess you had just realize me one thing, everlasting love just a simple words coming out from a simple mouth.. it ain't true, maybe i was too naive to trust all these thing.. but now i will not.. anyhow, sometimes i just have to smile, pretend everything okay, hold back the tears and just walk away and i'm going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everything perfect. act like it's all a dream, and pretend it's not hurting me.. it isn't sounds funny how the people who said i'll never hurt you one are the ones who hurt you the worst...!!! yet, i'm still LOVE him that much............. *SIGH* =(

My plan is to forgive and forget...

forgive myself for being stupid...

and forget you ever existed...!!!

LOVE??

It had been raining for more than a week, Arrgh... so much rain made me everyday seemed so restless and gloomy.. today he (dear) msg me and said he was coming up.. It was the third time he said came up to see me but at last he put my aeroplane again and again.. SIGH... he carried his excused of why he didnt came all the way here and went to meet his buddies at MCD, tuition and etc.. *disappointed x2* We were living in the same housing area but i doesnt really understand why is it so hard for us to meet each other.. We would always eat lunch together after school, watch movies, and sometimes go out together.. We were more like a family, but I didn't know why I would NOT end up falling in love with him anymore more than i did last last year.. =( my eyes were wide and fill with tears.. i afraid he would not love me anymore.. seriously, i feared he would say something like that.. he will never share every single thing with me but with his friends.. *tmr, 15nov* at night after my dinner, i wanted to have a intimate talk with him after i reached home but he going out with his friends for yamcha, its okay.. while waiting for him to come back then i sms with my friend to asked whether she had any plan where to go because i was too boring at home, at first wanted to go but he angry at me cox i never tell him who i go with.. because of that he angry and showed me temper! he said "fuck the world la, cant just make me peace 1day, my dad and you *me* always like that".. then i just replied "okay then, i wont bother you anymore" then i off my phone.. i turns off the light and sleep, i cried and thought about a lot of things.. then, he called my house, my mum ans but say i was sleeping.. i doesnt want to push him anymore, there is no point in finding fault with each other, sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship or etc.. we both miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other "trusted".. just treasure what i have now.. i don't want to regret liked last time i did before, multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness.. if everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, i guess there would be much fewer problems in the world.. take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think... LOVE?? i have no clue bout that.. I am going to write on all the bricks, rocks or wall "I MISS U" and i wish that one falls on ur head if can, hahas, so that u know how it hurts when u miss someone special like ME..

Treasure what you have... okay? time is always too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear. too long for those who grief, too short for those who rejoice but for those who love... "Time is Eternity"
For all you out there with someone special in your heart, cherish that person, cherish every moment that you spend together that special someone, for in life, anything can happen anytime.. you may painfully regret, only to realise that it is too late...

Life ends when you stop dreaming, hope ends when you stop believing and love ends when you stop caring.. so.......... dream hope and love... makes life beautiful =)

When the night comes, look at the sky.. If you see a star, don't wonder why, just make a wish.. Trust me, it will come true, 'cause I did it and I found you (dear)..!

death??

Eyes-31mins,

Brain-10 mins,

legs-4 hrs,

Skin-5 days,

Heart-10 mins,

Bones-30 days,

BUT... LOVE-FOREVER !!!

I have the "I",

I have the "L",

I have the "O",

I have the "V",

I have the "E",

... so pls can I have "U"?

If I get scared, would you hold me tight? If I make a mistake, would you make it rite? If I build a fire, would you watch over e flame? If I say i miss you, would you feel the same??

Love will fly if held too lightly..

Love will die if held too tightly..

How should I hold u..??

How do I know if I'm still keeping you or I'm letting go...

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